⚔️Writer’s Thoughts - My Vulnerability in Process: it’s been a mess
My mind has been filled with other writers’ processes or spreadsheets or wild notebook filled scribbles. My process unfortunately lives like digital content, on a non-tangible electrical network of inter-“webbed” thoughts floating or running in the cloud.
- It is SO hard for me to write things down, physically.
- I cannot stare at spreadsheets anymore than my professional day job requires.
- I can’t ‘wing it’ in this phase of writing.
This phase is hard. It’s beautifully hard.
✨I’ve stepped back and spent time wandering around the story’s timeline (past, present, & future). I’ve met and interviewed new or old characters in my mind. They’ve revealed incredible aspects about themselves, other characters, the world, & the history.
In this wandering, I realized plot holes, a need for tone adjustments, and recognition of old POV needing to be updated to fit the larger portion of the existing story, etc.
I spent last month and the first half of this month filling into those plot holes, rewriting, & adjusting scenes to smooth out the story. To me, fully completing this book’s story bare bones.
✨Now, I’m doing that hardest part. Lining up the original work next to a blank document. I’m tackling the POV change I need to do for 4 chapters…the first 4 chapters, written nearly 3 years ago! (I was a new mom then!)
I panicked realizing the pressure of it, like “if I touch the butterfly’s wing, will I take away its ability to fly?”, “Will my story lose its magic if I touch it?”. YET I am excited to renew my FMC and adjust one of my MMC’s dynamic, add to them both and bolster them up, and elevate the entryway for the reader into this world. I’m excited AND scared. I’m doing it, I’m doing the work everyday. I’m in it everyday. My butterfly’s wings will continue to fly 🦋